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One year into Fine, But Not Fine, I’m reflecting on why I started this podcast, what I planned for, and what surprised me along the way. This episode isn’t a highlight reel—it’s an honest look at living with chronic illness inside a healthcare and insurance system that asks too much of patients. I talk about anger, advocacy, learning to live with uncertainty, and the quiet truth that even when things are hard, life keeps on living.

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In this episode, I share a day that looked fine on the outside—but quietly changed something in me. A cancer treatment and a work crisis collided, and for the first time in ten years, I couldn’t keep my illness and my job in separate lanes. Nothing broke, but the fear did. This is an honest reflection on capacity versus commitment, the invisible stakes of health and work, and what it feels like when the margin you depend on suddenly disappears. There’s no takeaway—just the truth of sitting with it.

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Managing multiple doctors with a rare disease or chronic illness is complicated, confusing, and honestly, exhausting. In this episode, I talk about what it’s really like to juggle doctors who don’t talk to each other — from conflicting advice and duplicate lab tests to the emotional toll of telling your story over and over again. I share the strategies that help me stay (somewhat) sane, like keeping my own records, maintaining a master medication list, and advocating out loud — even when it feels pushy. 

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The holidays don’t have to be perfect to be joyful, especially when you’re living with a rare disease or chronic illness. In this episode, I share how I’ve learned to let go of stress, overspending, and obligation — from going out for Thanksgiving dinner to skipping holiday travel — and focus instead on peace, connection, and real joy.

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In this episode, I open up about rare disease fatigue—physical exhaustion from treatment, the emotional weight of constant advocacy, and the endless admin grind of managing care. I share what triggers burnout, how I cope through energy management, creativity, and support, and why hitting a wall isn’t failure—it’s a signal to rest and rebuild.

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In this episode, I explore what it really means to change jobs when you’re living with a chronic illness. For me, it’s not just about a new role—it’s about whether my health and my coverage will hold steady. I talk through the tough parts and I share how to plan ahead so you don’t get caught in a coverage gap, and the emotional weight of navigating it all. I also walk through my own solution—a job transition binder packed with medical and insurance details—and why leaning on HR, advocacy groups, and your support system can make the whole process survivable.

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Traveling with a rare disease isn’t simple—especially when your medication has to stay cold. In this episode, I share the real challenges of flying with Mycosis Fungoides, from packing syringes and sharps containers to navigating TSA rules. I talk about the hotel fridge disaster that forced me to upgrade to a TSA-approved cooler and why planning ahead is the key to stress-free travel. Most of all, I remind you: don’t let fear of complications keep you from seeing the world.

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In this episode, I share what volunteering has taught me while living with Mycosis Fungoides. From the General Federation of Women’s Clubs to the Cutaneous Lymphoma Foundation, I’ve seen how giving back builds connection, skills, and visibility—but only if you protect your energy. I talk about choosing roles that lift you up, setting boundaries, and how volunteering reminds me I’m more than my illness.

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In this episode, I share a recent experience that was far more than “scanxiety.” After a routine check-in revealed rapidly spreading skin patches, extreme fatigue, drenching sweats, and liver numbers that tripled in four weeks, my doctor paused my treatment and ordered a PET/CT scan to see if my Mycosis Fungoides had spread internally.

I walk you through the fear that set in—fear that felt different from worry—plus what it’s like to go through the process at Duke’s Cancer Center, from prep instructions and quirky waiting room details to the barium drink, the big scanner “donut,” and even the surprising Carolina-blue ceiling panel. Most of all, I talk about how it felt to sit in that space, knowing that the results could change my life in an instant.

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It’s been ten years since I was diagnosed with Mycosis Fungoides, and no there hasn’t been a miracle cure or a neat treatment roadmap. In this episode, I open up about what a decade with a rare, chronic illness really looks like. I’ve learned that surviving isn’t enough. You’ve got to find a way to live, loudly, bravely, and with purpose. And it’s why I’ve stepped up as a voice for change.